Thursday, August 20, 2009
I know it's only 7:39 am and I've been awake for 24 minutes, but I'm having a bad day. A really bad day. The kind of day where I'd take a sleeping pill right now to sleep the day away and another to get me through the evening until tomorrow. But I can't because I have my ultrasound today and I can't miss that. Though I want to miss it because I'm having a lot of anxiety about it. Yes, I know that it's non-invasive and I'll basically just lay there while it happens, but that doesn't alleviate my nerves. Along with the anxiety, I'm exhausted, I'm having sharp shooting pains all over my body, I have a headache, and I feel shaky. Oh, and my brain is moving really slowly. Every few seconds I find myself staring off into space and I can't focus. Ugh, I'll probably forget something and end up crying. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this. Why can't I just be "normal."