Because I'm not doing too well. Since last week I've been pushing myself. Something someone said really got to me and I guess in my efforts to be "normal" and spend more time out of bed, I went to far. I am so tired that I'm crying or maybe I'm crying from the pain and spasticity. I'm going back to sleep now. I have plans for the rest of the week and am hoping that I won't have to cancel. I also just received invites for this week and next week and I want to say yes. Cross your fingers for me!
Meanwhile, I need to keep telling myself: Chris, only you can manage your disease. Only you know what's best for your body. Stop letting people cloud your judgment. Do what is best for you or you will pay.