Back to bed

I've been trying to get up the strength to do a proper update, but it just isn't happening. My body is on full revolt. In addition to my typical MS symptoms, I'm having a hard time keeping food/drinks down, my entire left side hurts, and I'm so tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open. I spent the last two days sleeping in bed and I can already tell that today will be another one of those days. I makes me want to scream! I can't wait for this cycle to break.

No real post today

Because I'm not doing too well. Since last week I've been pushing myself. Something someone said really got to me and I guess in my efforts to be "normal" and spend more time out of bed, I went to far. I am so tired that I'm crying or maybe I'm crying from the pain and spasticity. I'm going back to sleep now. I have plans for the rest of the week and am hoping that I won't have to cancel. I also just received invites for this week and next week and I want to say yes. Cross your fingers for me!

Meanwhile, I need to keep telling myself: Chris, only you can manage your disease. Only you know what's best for your body. Stop letting people cloud your judgment. Do what is best for you or you will pay.