10 Things Everyone Should Know About Me

In no particular order:

1. I am stubborn. I rebel pretty much everything I'm told to do. Even if it's good advice or something I know I should be doing, being told what to do makes me tense up. I also listen to what's being said and reevaluate when there's no pressure.
2. I love office supplies. Some of my favorite items include paper clips, notebooks (yellow legal pads and quad ruled steno pads), and black ink pens. I also love organizational tools like bins, dividers, and binders.
3. I like the idea of crafting and creating things with my hands, though I'm not very good at it. I'm hoping to pick up a hobby to help keep my brain active.
4. Money issues cause me the most stress of anything in the whole wide world. I think I'd rather be debt-free more than I'd rather be healthy. The state of the economy is not helping my peace of mind.
5. When it comes to food, I prefer things that are heated and savory. I'm not a big fan of anything sweet and rarely eat bread, eggs, milk, lettuce, or syrup. Though I really enjoy french toast.
6. I already miss a lot of the patients at my old job and feel awful that I didn't get a chance to say goodbye. I'm bad at it anyway, but it would have been nice to try.
7. Lately, I've been crying while talking on the phone with Customer Service Representatives. I find it incredibly annoying and embarrassing.
8. My greatest love is singing and I regret not doing it more often. I haven't sang in quite some time, even though it has always been an amazing release for me. I wish there was a place for me to sing. I'm also really worried that I'll lose my ability as the disease progresses.
9. I hate being late. I hate it so much that I am chronically early to everything. It also means that I am seriously annoyed by tardiness.
10. I clean obsessively. Clutter and disorder makes me so anxious that I have to clean before taking care of other things. Most people don't understand this but have learned to accept my obsession.
    

Jumbled thoughts in the AM

I need to go to the office today, but before I do that there are a few things that I want to say. I'm sorry about the bullet point list, but I should really be taking a shower, I'm scatter-brained this morning, and I'm racing my laptop battery.

• I know that people are reading, thank you. Feel free to comment, I will respond.
• I know there were concerns about our survival if I go on disability. STOP WORRYING. MS has not made me irresponsible and selfish. Nope, it has actually made me more aware of how my actions affects those around me and my wife's opinion/emotions/worries are honored. Plus, I like working and being successful.
• I continue to have intermittent bouts of blurry vision. The scariest so far was yesterday after lunch. It was the first time it happened outside the house or at work. I had just finished lunch with my wife and was heading back to work when everything went blurry. I didn't want to scare her, so I nonchalantly headed back to work alone. But I was scared. I didn't even have my cane. Luckily, I know that route and there were lots of people out crossing the street so I didn't have to worry about cars. That time it was out for at least 30 minutes.
• Dr. Friedberg's office called yesterday to tell me that I have Vitamin D Deficiency. I was not surprised. It is pretty common among those with MS and from my research, a lot of people believe that Vitamin D Deficiency makes you more susceptible to MS. It does not cause MS and taking in more D doesn't cure MS, but it may help manage symptoms. We'll see.
  
• Today is not a good day. I worked a full day yesterday, we were up late, and I fell this morning (lost my balance coming down those dang stairs, I was using my cane). I am exhausted, headachey, sore, and spaghetti-legged. Taking the bus to work should be lots of fun.

OK, I think there was more that I wanted to write, but I'm so scatterbrained that this took me almost an hour and now I need to get moving so I can get to work. More later.